Happy with what you have to be happy with
How can it be that I am happy and yet feel so bored I could jump off a cliff? Regular readers of this blog, that is those who have been following for a couple of years will know that I have irregular times of being bored for no apparent reason. I just cannot be bothered sometimes. Life is good for a number of reasons, best of all is that it is God-given but even knowing that doesn’t prevent my journeys into getting fed-up with it. The things I like doing, the interests I have and even my work all seem to lose my attention to them at times. When these feelings come over me I lose interest in all those things, I can’t be bothered with them or anything. If I play my guitar I normally enjoy it but then get bored and put it down after a few minutes, if I browse the Internet it bores me soft and I switch to playing solitaire for ages instead, if I decide to stay at home I get bored and if I go to the pub all I want to do is return home. I find the everyday things in life a chore, I speak with people then wished they would just leave me alone, yet I sometimes yearn for company. I like driving but almost never just go for a drive somewhere and if I do I begin to think to myself where are you going and what’s the point? Well exactly, what is the point? Yet through all of this I feel ecstatically happy! How strange is that? Many might say I am just depressed but it isn’t depression as in the clinical meaning of the word, it is simply boredom and anything anyone suggests to me to alleviate it is totally uninteresting. I know it will pass, it always does and yet I feel more and more at home with the feelings I get as time goes by. I am getting used to it like a soul who just wants to turn off the switch and disappear into the distance never to be seen again. I have tried to explain these feelings before but each time, as above, it doesn’t really make any sense. I’ll remain bored until it wears off else get used to it and remain that way………….in the meantime………….I’m…………….Oh I can’t be bothered…………
Shirley Anne
Related articles
- Boredom (nomadicmainstream.com)
- Bored, bored, bored (annanowicki.blogspot.com)
